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Now I understand white privilege

July 7, 2016 by Jill 15 Comments

I can’t imagine wanting to apply for a permit to carry a concealed weapon. I know I could. I don’t have a criminal record or anything that would bar me from being able to legally carry a firearm. I can afford to buy one. I just can’t imagine wanting to carry one around with me all the time.

I’m a white mom. I live in the suburbs. In a good neighborhood. I can’t fathom the need for self-defense on my routine trips to Target and the grocery store. Needing to protect myself to that degree is so far from my normal realm of thought I can’t even imagine it. I know I’m lucky. Privileged, even.

The first time I heard the phrase “white privilege” I rolled my eyes. It was in an online conversation about maternity pants. Someone in one of my mom forums was upset because the stretchy panel in her maternity pants was “flesh colored.” She posted a picture of the offending pants with a caption of “this is a perfect example of white privilege.” Then the conversation turned to bandaids and what it meant to people of color when “flesh color” was always “white.”

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I thought my online friend had too much time on her hands or maybe she just liked to complain a lot. Come on…maternity pants? For the record, I had one pair of maternity jeans and the stretchy panel was black. I had to think on this for a minute because it’s been a long time since I was pregnant and I don’t recall the color of the material no one saw as being something that even registered on my radar.

I’ve heard the term white privilege tossed around many times since but I’ve never really “got it” until today. I guess I haven’t needed to.

Or maybe I did.

Like many Americans following the news today, I’ve read the story of Philando Castile, a Minnesota elementary school worker whose girlfriend live streamed from the scene of his shooting. I don’t have all the details that I’m sure will surface in the coming days and weeks but it looks like Castile was shot at close range by a police officer as he was trying to retrieve his ID after being stopped for a busted tail light.

When I first read about this shooting, I passed it off as something that didn’t have very much to do with me. People shoot each other all the time in this crazy world we live in. Horrible things happen. People do terrible things to each other and I’ll be honest here: most of the time, I can’t bear to look. I don’t watch the news and most of the time, I skip on by the ugly things I see on social media and focus on the touchy feely stories and cat videos.

But today, as I scrolled through Facebook I kept seeing one name pop up, over and over. Philando Castile. I watched the video. Like everyone else who has watched the video, I only saw one snapshot in time.

But that was enough.

I kept seeing post after post on this shooting. Everyone had something to say. Most were outraged. All were saddened. Some urged us to “do something.” I must have read about 50 posts today responding to the Philando Castile shooting. I don’t have the answers. If I can “do something” I really don’t know what that is. But I know this:

If I look into my rearview mirror and see flashing red lights, I’m not afraid. I probably have an “oh shit” moment but I have zero fear that I’ll be harmed or even harassed by a police officer. I’m a nice white lady in a minivan with crushed Cheezits all over the floor in suburbia U.S.A. I might walk away with a ticket or maybe just a warning. No police officer is going to perceive me as a threat or a problem. Of that, I am absolutely certain. I don’t know what it feels like to have a law enforcement officer – or anyone – perceive me as a problem based on what I look like. I don’t know what it’s like to be hunted or profiled.

And that right there is white privilege. It’s the knowledge that being a victim of police brutality is probably never going to happen to me. This has nothing whatsoever to do with bandaids or maternity pants…but that makes a little more sense to me now, too.

I don’t have all the pieces of the puzzle, but I don’t think Philando Castile needed to die this week. I have a hard time believing he did anything that warranted being shot multiple times at close range while a little girl sat in the backseat. I can’t imagine the need to wave a loaded firearm at a dying, unconscious man and a woman armed with a smart phone who was doing her absolute best to be cooperative and polite.

I don’t have all the answers but I have a better read on white privilege and what it really means. I know that if my white husband had been the one pulled over for a busted tail light that odds of him getting shot are almost nonexistent.

A man I don’t know who died two days before his thirty-third birthday has had such a profound impact on me. It means more than something ugly on the news. I don’t know if walking away less tunnel-visioned here in my white, suburban bubble means anything to anyone else but it means something to me.

Philando Castile was someone’s son. Someone’s love. Someone’s friend. I hope the people that love him and grieve his loss find some answers and some peace.

I don’t know if sharing my thoughts counts as “doing something.” I don’t know if standing with my friends and saying “this man didn’t deserve to die today and we need to do better” counts as “doing something. But, maybe it’s a start.

Thank you for being here, friends.

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  1. Kristi R Campbell says

    July 7, 2016 at 10:18 pm

    I don’t know either but I think this helps.

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  2. Theresa says

    July 8, 2016 at 12:46 am

    I am deeply disturbed by all the violence in our world right now. & Even so, I can’t image why something like this happens. Being in a position of authority can be dangerous but, no one has the right to abuse that position. Or assume / target based off race. Things like this have to stop.

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  3. Aubrey @ 53 weeks says

    July 8, 2016 at 9:00 am

    Well said, I’m glad you said something and shared your point of view…even if you just get through to one person (about white priveledge), you’ve made a huge difference!

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  4. Megan says

    July 11, 2016 at 11:37 am

    Thank you for these provocative thoughts. Right on. I’m not sure what it means to “do something” either, but if you’ve been given a gift and a platform to write, then that is your calling at the moment. Thanks for sharing with us. There are no easy answers. We’re all just putting one foot in front of the other and trying to understand each other as best we can.

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  5. Carly Burton says

    July 11, 2016 at 9:42 pm

    Thanks for writing this, Jill. As a white mom of black daughter, I acknowledge my privilege on a regular basis. She is still quite young and doesn’t really understand what is happening but I do fear the day when she will know and when I will have to have “the talk” with her about the police and how she and her friends and perhaps a boyfriend must behave near the police to be safe (or try to be safe). It is a conversation that I know I must have but frankly, it fills me with dread.
    Another thing that you can do, that we can all do, is educate our children, whatever race they may be, about race, racism, white privilege, and the fraught relationship that the African American community has with law enforcement. This background, this context is critical to understanding why this violence happens. It is critical to the understanding of the Black Lives Matter movement. Thanks for starting the conversation.

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  6. Michele Borsari says

    July 12, 2016 at 8:12 am

    You really made me think. “White privilege” never struck home with me until you pointed out the fact that seeing flashing red lights in my rear view mirror causes me anger and embarrassment, but not fear. Wow! Thank you!

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  7. Erika says

    July 13, 2016 at 11:59 am

    There is no “perfect” thing to say or do, but this sure is a start. Thanks for sharing your perspective!

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  8. Natasha says

    July 13, 2016 at 2:43 pm

    Such a scary time in our nation. Thank you for sharing your perspective. I pray for my children!

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  9. Theresa says

    July 13, 2016 at 2:58 pm

    Very interesting. It’s been a tough couple of weeks! So many tragedies to consider. I hope parents will teach their children to accept all so no one will experience the pain that has happened lately.

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  10. Elizabeth says

    July 13, 2016 at 7:12 pm

    My son told me that I could probably get pulled over, in my minivan, with an open box of automatic weapons in the back seat and not even get a ticket. Middle aged, white mom in a minvan privilege. And you know what? He was probably right. The prejudice and racism in our country is a seriously blemish on our “image.” Sad.

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  11. Michele (Kid Congeniality) says

    July 13, 2016 at 8:39 pm

    We live in sad times. Everyone has been sad and deflated this past week watching that video. Hope lies in our children to make the world a better place!

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  12. CourtneyLynne says

    July 13, 2016 at 11:53 pm

    Living in FL for many years, I always assumed this white privilege stuff was nonsense! Living in Orlando it really is a melting pot. Even the richest of the rich neighborhoods had people of all races and colors. The cops were a mix of everything! Now fast forward to me now living in WNY in a smallish town. I’m ashamed to say that yes, white privilege absolutely exist :-/ WNY is definitely one divided area and it makes me sad.

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  13. A LOVED Coach says

    July 15, 2016 at 9:57 am

    Thank you for being so honest and aware. Your words are “doing something” and will make a change in the world.

    Reply

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