Feathering Our Empty Nest

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My husband and I became empty-nesters in 2011. I hate when people say “empty-nesters.” It sounds sad. And old.

My daughter moved out. I got a promotion. We moved from the Midwest United States to England. To say 2011 was a year of change…well, that’s a pretty big understatement.

I looked forward to a quiet house, spur-of-the-moment weekends away, sex with the door open…and all of that stuff was nice, don’t get me wrong. It was like being newlyweds again. But, the empty nest was…well…empty. I think my husband chalked it up to lack of having someone to “do for,” to fuss over. Maybe that was a little true but I felt inexplicably directionless. My days were full and my life was busy, happy even. But something was missing.

We’d discussed adoption when we first got married. We were older. My fertility ship had sailed into the sunset. We talked about how nice it would be to parent together in vague terms. These adoption conversations never really went anywhere.

I’ve always felt a pull toward adoption. My brother is adopted, as are several of my cousins. I looked into adoption as a single woman, before I met my husband but it was beyond my budget and, given what was going on in my life, probably beyond the scope of what I’d have been able to handle. Sometimes, the universe gets things right.

Shortly after we moved to England, I met another American, a woman named Jenny. She had a lovely Chinese-born daughter and the first time I saw them together, I had kind of an “aha” moment. I know that doesn’t make sense and as much as I’ve tried to rationalize it and articulate it over the years, I really just can’t. I can only say that when I saw Jenny and her daughter together, the path I was supposed to be on became a little clearer.

Jenny was kind enough to point me in the right direction as far as adoption agencies and paperwork went. The logistics of wading through the unholy amount of paperwork that is international adoption were a lot easier to digest because of her handholding and never-ending patience with my many, many questions.

To begin the parenting journey again at 45 and 49 was quite another matter. The paperwork was tedious and the waiting was agony but none of that compares to actually adjusting to having a new child in your family, when you’re a couple that’s a little set in their ways.

Our son Zack was 26 months old when he was placed in our arms for the first time and we were immediately thrust into a world of poop, snot, and loud toys. It turned our life upside down…in a good way. In a crazy tired good way. Our second son, Kyle, joined our family a year later. Today, we have two four-year-old virtual twins. Our boys are four months apart. Life is good. Life is freakin’ loud.

Becoming parents again at midlife has been interesting. We joke that it will either keep us young or drive us into an early grave. I use a lot more hair color and get a lot less sleep. But, I smile more and worry less about what other people think about how we live. We get a lot of “wow, how great it is you’ve adopted” with the unspoken “at your age.” I’ve even been asked if I was the grandma, which wasn’t one of my top ten life moments, but I made it through.

I’m not suggesting every empty nester’s answer to feeling a little directionless is to go out and have another kid, but for us…it’s working. My back creaks and squeaks when I bend over to give the boys a bath. When one of my boys informs me (and when I say informs me, I mean yells in my ear at close range) that it’s “no more dark” at the butt-crack of dawn, I realize exactly how old I am, down to the month.

There are all kinds of reason to adopt: not being able to have babies the old-fashioned way, wanting to “save” a child or just liking the idea of expanding your family with a child who needs one.

I wake up sometimes (usually at 3AM because there’s a little foot in my kidney) and marvel at the direction my life has taken. No, I didn’t expect this life in my almost fifties. But, I figure I’ve bought myself another 10 years or so of driving carpools, attending soccer practices and fielding “but whys” and defending “because I said so’s.”

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Maybe not the traditional path, but it’s the path I chose. It’s my path. It’s my story. The rest has yet to be written.

 

 


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19 Comments

  1. I just LOVE this story so much… what a beautiful turn you made in your next season of life! I agree, “empty nest” sounds sad, and it shouldn’t.

    I am so inspired by your adoptions story and your gorgeous journey into motherhood- again.

  2. Love this! I have an adopted sister and our mom is a single parent. We have tried fostering a couple of kids (not at the same time) with the hopes of adopting but it never materialized until one day, a baby girl came into our lives and mother said that she (my sister) was the one meant for us. 🙂

  3. I love this story! My husband is adopted and once upon a time we talked about adoption, too. We even had a foster child for almost a year. Now, 13 years and three biological daughters later, adoption has definitely been put a burner way back on the far, far back of the stove. But, I still think about it and wonder if, someday, we will go down that road.

  4. I had my last baby when I was 36 and a lot of my friends are still having babies in their 40s. In this day and age it doesn’t seem to strange to be an older mom. 🙂 With 4 kids 11 and younger, my life is also freakin’ loud. I’m looking forward to reading your story.

  5. I am an “older” parent, too. My youngest was born when I was just hitting the big four-o. I love being an older mom for so many reasons, and I realize that I wouldn’t have done a very good job if I’d started younger. I love how you said it’s your story. That’s so true. We all have our stories, and they are all important and special. Thanks for sharing your experiences!

  6. My husband and I have a similar story. Our “bigs” are 24 and 21. A year and a half ago one of my third grade students lost her mother. We felt compelled to give her a home–along with her then three-year-old brother. So at 49 and 50, we are now the adoptive parents of an 11-year-old girl and 5-year-old boy. And you’re right. Life is loud but good. We’re learning the new normal at our house. Your stories inspire me!

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